Here’s a little continuation to the previous post.
When I met my friends back then, we talked a bit about life goals. Like, when you are in high school, that’s what is motivating you, finishing it is a goal to work towards. After you graduate, the next goal will be getting your university degree. My friend had just finished his master’s degree. After that is done, you are left with a sense of purposelessness – up until then you had specific milestones to achieve, but now you are left with this uncertainty. You just keep living, a day at a time.
I’ve been in that spot for so long now. I am guessing some others find their new goals – in work, family or hobbies. But I have my depression and stuff which certainly don’t help in that. Regardless, for a few days after writing the previous blog post, I did feel a certain drive. To write more blog entries. And to look for interesting things to do, so that I have something to write about.
Not sure if blogging really is gonna be this huge motivator for me, but I gotta admit, writing is pretty fun sometimes. Even if having a goal to write regularly kinda makes it a chore too.
I have been studying Japanese for a few years now. Haven’t had too much progress. The rate of acquiring new kanji 漢字 and vocabulary is low, but the progress is steady and I’m slowly learning more. Meanwhile, I have a friend who got really good at Chinese, even got his master’s degree at it. I’m impressed he got so well into this totally different culture and language. So last week, to renew our bonds, we had a Chinese night out with him and another friend.
We had some food and beer at a Chinese restaurant that he is working for. Surprisingly, another of my old acquaintances was working there as a waitress. It kinda made me feel sad and nostalgic, that I’ve hung around with like a 1000 different people in the past, and now I don’t even remember their names anymore.
My half Chinese friend told us some stuff about Chinese culture – explained that the way you know someone is a real Chinese person is that they are spitting, farting and burping loudly in public. He added jokingly that this was exactly why he got into Chinese culture – because he felt that you should be able to do these things freely.
To finish off the meal, we had some shots of Chinese rice vodka. The guys warned me it would be horrible but I thought it was nothing too bad, so we continued the evening by going to a bar in town that actually specialized in that Chinese rice liquor and got some more shots of it there. I initially thought it was weird we have enough money in our small town that a bar as specific as that can function, but the place was actually extremely nice so I ended up getting why it can stay in business.
Finally we went to my place, it was sort of my house warming event for them since I moved a few months back. On the way, the half Chinese guy farted loudly, which confirmed that he is a real half Chinese person.
My whole life revolves around video games, so of course when we arrived here I instantly whipped out some controllers and put on Puyo Puyo Tetris. That game is a sort of a tradition for me, every time someone comes over I gotta play it with them. I win every time and feel ashamed that I put them through that, but traditions must be continued.
I felt like the half Chinese guy was not all that impressed with my videogameyness, but the other guy kinda saw the appeal in it. Overall it made me rethink my life for a moment – should my whole identity consist only of games or should I rather do something else with my time? But that thought faded soon.
I think that the best format to write blog posts is to end it with a surprise, a punch line. Otherwise it ends up feeling like the ending is abrupt, the post unfinished. But I didn’t manage it this time. So therefore, to make this more of an educational article than an entertaining one, I’ll give you, the reader, some more insight into Chinese culture – here is an illustrative picture of the booze mentioned before:
Years fly by so fast. The past gets forgotten. But the thoughts and actions of those times – which might be gone from your memories – will keep holding an effect on you, on all around you, regardless if you are aware of it or not. So, in order to widen my awareness of reality and reconnect with my past self, I am once again reviewing an old blog post from my old blog, from almost the same date as today, but from 17 years ago.
In the following, bold text will be kept as it was in the original post, but items that have changed since then will be in italic.
1. Copy and Paste into your blog 2. BOLD anything true 3. Leave plain anything untrue
75 Questions
001. I miss somebody right now. 002. I watch more tv than I used to. 003. I love olives. 004. I love sleeping. 005. I own lots of books. 006. I wear glasses or contact lenses. 007. I like to play video games. 008. I’ve tried marijuana. 009. I’ve watched a porn movie 010. I have been in a threesome. 011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. 012. I believe honesty is the best policy. 013. I have acne free skin. 014. I like and respect Michael Jackson. 015. I curse frequently. 016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. 017. I have a hobby. 018. I’ve been told I have a nice butt. 019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. 020. I’ve never broken anyone else’s bones. 022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. 023. I love rain. 024. I’m paranoid at times. 025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 026. I need money right now. 027. I love sushi. 028. I talk really, really fast sometimes. 029. I have fresh breath when i wake up. 030. I have semi-long hair. 031. I have lost money at a casino. 032. I have at least one brother and/or sister. 033. I was born in a country outside Australia. 034. I shave my legs. 035. I have a twin. 037. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D. 038. I like the way I look. 039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months. 040. I know how to do cornrows. 041. I am usually pessimistic. 042. I have mood swings. 043. I think prostitution should be legalized. 044. I think Britney Spears is pretty/hot. 045. I have cheated on a significant other. 046. I have a hidden talent. 047. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (Almost anyway) 048. I think that I’m popular. 049. I am currently single. 050. I have kissed someone of the same sex. 052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. 053. I love to shop. 054. I would rather shop than eat. 055. I would classify myself as ghetto. 056. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. 057. I’m obsessed with my blog! 058. I don’t hate anyone. 059. I’m a pretty good dancer. 060. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington 061. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. 062. I have a mobile phone. 063. I watch MTV on a daily basis. 065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. 067. I have never been in a real relationship before. 068. I’ve rejected someone before. 069. I currently have a crush on someone. 070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. 071. I want to have children in the future. 072. I have changed a diaper before. 073. I’ve had the cops called on me before. 074. I bite my nails. 075. I’m not allergic to anything deadly.
Since I missed my deadline to write a blog post last week, here’s another one.
I stumbled upon this theory recently. There are a lot of articles about it. And it really resonates with me. Like, I watch Reddit daily and am severely annoyed by the amount of memes that are posted by bots for the nthteenth time. Also, I feel like the content I consume really shapes and molds my mind into a certain shape and form which gets more and more rigid over time. Like the shape of the box my opinions fit in gets smaller and smaller and its outlines more pronounced. The same is probably happening to you, in your own ways.
But be relieved, I have a solution for you. A solution for escaping the echo chambers you are stuck in. There’s a website that only serves Real Human Content™. That website is quite amazing. It is called Furamo. Yes, it is the one you are currently reading. To fix your narrow angles of opinion just visit this blog weekly. Come here for raw, selfish, personal content. Written by a human who has no agendas, no desire to warp your mind, other than the subconscious pressure towards certain directions that I have picked up myself. Come here and check out the stories about this and that which will continue until I run out of anime screenshots to use as a cover picture.
The age of the Internet is weird. So much stuff that you do leaves a permanent mark on some server somewhere. And then someone will make a Youtube video about it. Which will make it even more permanent. At least that’s what happened to me.
The video was about my video game character. I am a star now. He tried to copy my build and kinda failed at it.
My previous bit of permanent Internet fame was when I got a high result in a Magic the Gathering tournament. It will forever show up when you google for me.
I hope I will live long enough to find more weird bits of success like that.
